Surviving Domestic Abuse and Violence by the Grace of God

If I had not been called by the Lord, I might still be in it.  I might be dead. But by the grace of God he saved my life, and saved my spirit.  I am still recovering, and try to take each day and live it with joy.  I can’t tell my whole story yet because it could be detrimental to pending legal proceedings; I am going through divorce-he is divorcing me.  That’s okay, I don’t want to be with him.  I pray for him, it’s part of learning to forgive.  My sin, which is pure selfishness, is what got me into this mess in the first place.  I think now that it is easier to forgive him than myself.  I was so blind and in tremendous denial, which is what allowed all this to happen.  No one deserves to be abused; but, I didn’t have on my armor of the holy spirit and was vulnerable to the abuse.  I was independant, and most of all, I did not have a personal relationship with the Lord as I do now.  I didn’t know what that meant.  I was baptized as a child and very active in the church; but they did not teach personal relationships with Jesus.  As I got older I drifted away from church as a result of participation in Freemasonry, which teaches that good works are the way to salvation and they DO worship Lucifer covertly.  But that’s a whole other subject.  I now know that there is no way to earn salvation, and without Jesus Christ in my life, actively, participating in all my words and actions, I am either dead or the living dead.  Things that have helped me the most are daily prayer, sometimes constantly; having others help me to pray; learning from Joyce Meyers; Jon Courson, David Rosales, reading commentaries about the book of Job and how no one understood his pain.  I have been seeking a new home church because we were going to a large Mega Church and hardly any opportunities to fellowship.  I recently learned that fellowship means communication and sharing.   I liked the church I was at because the bible was taught verse by verse, but I can do that online.  I can say that I have read most of the bible, but have not lived it and am trying now to be a blessing to others.

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Christian mother, survivor of domestic abuse and violence by the grace of God
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1 Response to Surviving Domestic Abuse and Violence by the Grace of God

  1. Amen! says:

    You are going through tests and giving a testimony — puts me to shame, I’ve been analyzing the problem and advocating, etc. (at least on-line).

    This group here: http://www.quickeningfireministries.org — I have met them (though I’m not local to the area). “Freely ye have received, freely give” refers to bringing deliverance through faith.

    For the past year, out of so many getting worse and worse, it seemed, my life has begun to turn around, it required some help towards deliverance (which is an ongoing transformation), particularly as trauma, abuse (your case: Freemasonry; I had my own ‘stuff” who doesn’t?). I used to not have hope, because I was looking more at circumstances than at God, which was part of my own heritage, who I am (though not since I was little).

    There is a strong connection between emotions and spirit(s). Once you have an understanding, it’s like a tool, and can be repeatedly applied, you become more aware of influences and how you handle them.

    If they ask, say, a woman in California….

    With God, things continue to get better with faithfulness and time. Challenges will probably increase, as also your strength to meet them because you are not alone.

    I so look forward to talking with you, I hope!

    Ephesians 6!

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